For consider your calling, brethren, that there were not many wise according to the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, but God has chosen the foolish things of the world to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to shame the things which are strong, and the base things of the world and the despised, God has chosen, the things that are not, that He might nullify the things that are, that no man should boast before God. (1 Corinthians 1:26-29)
i love the word of God. i have loved these verses for years. Because they give someone like me great and magnificent hope. Because i can find myself amongst the foolish, amongst the weak, amongst the base, amongst the despised, amongst the nobodies. Little did i know that i have worn even these labels with pride, with false humility. With a lot of striving, a lot of trying. Today, i testify, that unless the Lord wills it, unless it is the work of the Spirit of the Lord, all is vain. All is a chasing after wind. All is selfish. i testify, that even now, to have been led to a place where suddenly, even this has to be exposed and brought to the Light; even this has to be dealt with. Even this has to be brought to death.
Until we come face to face with a holy God, touched deep to the very core of who we are, will we truly comprehend the word despised. Until we come face to face with a strong God, and experience the burning power that is He, will we truly know intimately what it means to be weak. Not until we encounter the incomprehensible wisdom of God, and fall helpless in a pile of utter brokenness, will we fully appreciate our own foolishness. Not until we are completely striped bare, bankrupt of everything, utterly crushed will we know the difference that is the strength of our gifts, the strength of our personalities, the strength of our selves, and the strength of our God. And believe me, the strength of God is exceedingly more than more than. Suddenly to be weak, to be despised, to be base, to be foolish, to be blind, to be nought takes on a whole new meaning, and God is magnified beyond where i have ever known Him to be.
The Lord is a man of war; the Lord is His name. (Exodus 15:3)
Not until we are trusted, and tossed tumbling into the reality of life in a war, will we truly understand the breadth, and length, and height, and depth of the nature of this war we live in. Not until we cease to live our lives still all about us, all about our fame, all about building our own businesses, all about how significant our place is in man-made structures, all about what we will look like on the surface - all about projecting a false sense of security, a false identity - will we truly see the urgency, and the magnitude of what life is truly about, and come face to face with the reality of a war fierce and fiery. And in seeing this, we are privileged to see the magnitude of who He is, the strength that is He, the power that is truly His. To experience intimately the breadth, the length, the height and the depth of His love. To see and experience personally what He is all about; to find where His heart is hidden, concealed. We discover again how incomprehensively large He is; how even in the intense heat of our battles, learn and know intimately the security of being right in the middle of His hands. All of a sudden, even the definition of Love starts to change; even to be loved intensely by the Lord, to be pursued relentlessly by the Almighty is brought to a whole different level. Brought to a new height. And we are completely and utterly left stunned, left without speech, without abilities, and realize that all along our understanding and our knowledge of Him has been so shallow, so flimsy, so simplistic. How we have treated Him like a giant Sugar Daddy in the sky, and used the Word of God like good luck charms. What He intends to do, even in a war completely leaves us breathless, utterly ruined, and totally crushed. And all we can do is lift up both hands, and give in. Worship. Adore. Suddenly, to surrender to the Lord becomes His doing; to willingly come and bow down and worship originates from Him.
Suddenly, even in a season of war, He is central. Even in war, it is about Him. Even in war, it is about worship. Even in war, it is about Love. This, is what an upgrade looks like.