For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family derives its name, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in the inner man; so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith, and that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ, which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God. (Ephesian 3:14-19)
There are people whom i love to converse with. Even though it is through personal messages that sometimes take a few days for an answer to reach me. i am one of those dorky people who still believe in hand written letters sent snail-mailed in an envelope. i am currently having a lively conversation with a friend who lives in another country in another time zone. We are chatting about living life here and now in the place we have come to call home. He is sharing the difficulty of responding rightly, if not in a Christ-like manner, during family confrontations. His story is the story of three brothers who share a successful family business with an ageing father who has remarried a younger woman after their mother passed away. We are dialoguing on how to walk in love and wisdom in our day to day lives, making decisions that impact us and those around us. In other words, do we suck it up, lay down our selves, let go, or do we stand firm in our conviction? Each situation calls for a different respond. Many times, we are caught in the moment and do not listen out for Him. And we react.
We do not have a firm answer; that is why it is a dialogue. This is why our conversing is refreshing because we both fumble, sometimes breaking through, sometimes falling short. Easier said than done is what we like to say to each other. We are highly aware of our huge need for the Holy Spirit. We are hugely aware that we are far less than being perfect as Christians.
So, is it like giving the left cheek as well when someone slaps us on the right cheek? i wrote, How do you see this? And what does true humility looks like in my daily life? These are questions i am desperately seeking. i need something more than good words; i am seeking more even though i do not really know what exactly i am looking for.
His answer surprised me. He presented me a whole different perspective on giving the left cheek, on humility. He showed me another side to look at something that i had been taught many times in churches.
A lot of people seek the breadth, the length and the height of being in Christ. i am one of them. i want to live wide and long for Jesus; i want to reach for the highest peaks for Him. i have grand ideals; i have great faith. It is a gift, a privilege to have a belly full of zeal; to be able to see the positives and believe. Today, i am suddenly given another perspective; i am suddenly given the hope that there is more. i am presented with the realization that perhaps to reach higher, i should first go deeper. It is the concept that to build up, to go high, one must first go low, dig deep to build a firm foundation. Of course, the picture that comes to mind immediately when we see the word Deeper is the exercise of digging deeper theologically. Perhaps, there is more. If we know who He is, we know that He is a God who looks not as man sees; His thoughts are not like ours. Today, i suddenly found that giving the left cheek has a whole different side to it. i suddenly find true humility has another facet. Therefore, i wonder, in order to realize or to comprehend the fullness of what i already possess, i wonder, if it is for me to learn or to re-learn again, and again, what it looks like, and what it means to come low, to come deep, to come unseen, be undone again. And again. And again. And again...